humility...

just as a side note, i really saw a true example of humility today. jeff didnt speak at church today. they had a guy who had recently moved here speak. i was kinda excited about hearing him. his wife heads up the human trafficing group here that i attend. she is pretty much awesome, so i assumed he would be as well. jason introduced him and told that he had attended seminary in cali. this only added to my excitement. let me make a side note. i am assuming that just because you are awesome and go to seminary that you are going to was eliquent each and every time you stand in front of a body of people. while this generally may be true, it was not today. his message was about how we try to commercialize and sell christianity today versus rely and draw strength and true from the heart of Christmas. While he was making several valid and solid points, i could tell he was really struggling getting the message out. about half way through his sweating and stumbling, he came to a complete stop. a stop long enough for everyone to feel awkward. this was not a slight pause to collet his thoughts, rather a long pause and perfuse sweating episode that left me wondering wether i was going to have to practice my cpr training. he however started to speak. this time very sincere and comfortable. he said that he realized that he was doing the same thing that his message was on. he was trying to sell us the message rather than help us see the truth. he admitted that he wanted to "impress" his new church. this to me was amazing. for the next 15 minutes he really shared his heart. and his desire for all of us to be so filled with the true meaning of Christmas that is would spill out from us into the community we live in and all the relationships that we have on a day to day basis. the humility it took to stop and admit the things he did deeply touched me. i have a hard time with humility on small scales. the humility he faced today was on a scale larger than most people ever face. i really respect that. and unbeknown to him, while he was trying to "impress" us, i think he did just that. it was a true and real display of what an impact you can make on people when you let God do things His way.